A Soft Haze of Blue

Posting this  here because i dont have the guts to send it to those who really need to hear it.

1. Share with me your happiness, sadness, joys and lows – I wanna know when you’re doing good, and share that happiness with you or be there to help when you aren’t
2. Return phone calls – otherwise I’ll spend my time second guessing myself that I’ve somehow done something wrong or something to offend you in some way and proceed to make myself sick trying to figure out what it could have been.
3. Be there if/when I need you – it may be rare, but it happens
4. If we had any sort of tentative plans and you need to change them, PLEASE bother to call me and let me know, I’m not expecting my life to revolve around you but again, I’ll think I did something wrong and proceed to make myself sick trying to figure it out
5. If you are upset about something I may or may not have done, tell me, preferably when you and I are sober so it doesn’t turn into some stupid cliché drunk girl convo

drama4 [ˈdraːmə] noun

" I just have to tell you, you look awesome!!!!"....i recently have lost 60lbs...and it took awhile to really notice, and i bought new clothes recently that fit the slimmed down frame so more people have noticed....and i'm no good with compliments...i dont know how to respond

Not sure why unicorns have become the thing lately, but .... makes me laugh

Some funny stuff....there are some more "episodes" on you tube :) Enjoy! 

Yay yay, i got approved on an apartment in town Traverse City, and i will be moving out of my current situation this weekend. sigh....life is on the up side.

Scorpio is an astrological sign, which is associated with the constellation Scorpius. Under the tropical zodiac, Scorpio is occupied by the Sun from October 23 to November 22, and under the sidereal zodiac, it is currently from November 16 to December 15. The opposite sign to Scorpio is Taurus.

Scorpio is the eighth sign of the Zodiac and associated with intensity, passion, and power. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a complex, emotional, analytical, keenly perceptive, focused, intuitive, determined, hypnotic, perspicacious and self-contained character, but one which is also prone to extremity, jealousy, secretiveness, possessiveness, stubbornness, cruelty and cunning. In terms of anatomy, Scorpio is said to rule the pelvis, reproductive system and urinary system. In terms of geography Scorpio is linked with Egypt, Syria, Algeria, and Morocco.

Medieval astrologers believed that "By virtue of its tail armed with its powerful sting, the Scorpion creates natures ardent for war and active service, which rejoices in plenteous bloodshed and in carnage more than in plunder. When warfare is in abeyance, they find themselves foes to attack, there are those who enjoy mockfights and joust in arms and devote their leisure to the study of war and every pursuit which arises from the art of war".

Scorpio is traditionally thought to be ruled by the planet Mars, but in recent years many astrologers have labeled Pluto as the ruler or co-ruler of Scorpio, attributing the intensity associated with the sign to the planet's influence.

In mythology Scorpio is often associated with Orpheus, from the Greek myth of Orpheus and Eurydice. Scorpio is also associated with the Greco-Roman gods Ares/Mars and sometimes the god Hades/Pluto.

Famous Scorpios include John Keats, Anthony Kiedis, Jonas Salk, Marie Curie, Bill Gates, Alexander Alekhine, Jose Capablanca, John Cleese, Scott Weiland, Steve Ditko, Grace Kelly and Rock Hudson.

Scorpio

Zodiac Symbol:	Scorpion
Birth Dates (Tropical):	October 23 - November 22
Birth Dates (Sidereal):	November 16 - December 15
Birth Dates (Solar):	November 23 - November 29
Constellation:	Scorpius
Zodiac Element:	Water
Zodiac Quality:	Fixed
Body Part:	Genitals
Domicile:	Mars (or/and Pluto - currently under review)
Detriment:	Venus
Exaltation:	Uranus (Modern astrology)
Fall:	Moon
Birthstone:	Topaz
Colours:	Red and Black
Numbers:	Three and Five
Day:	Tuesday
Gemstones:	Topaz, Coral, Garnet, Ruby and Zircon
Metal:	Gold, Silver,

So, here i am again....wanted to wish you all Happy New Year, heres hoping 2007 brings you happiness and health.

Myself, still stuck in shitty situation...well after careful consideration and discussion with my family and friends, i've decided to move, i'm practically sick about the whole thing, she's being "cool" i guess but its almost bi-polar cool.  It feels like at any second something else could go wrong and all hell will break loose, and i cannot live like that.  So over the past few days i've proceeded to look for a new location to live.  All a bit more money but less hassle and less drive.  I go today to look at a Duplex over nearby work, not a bad little place and its just for litle old me, and i'm sure once i'm in and outta where i'm at, my life will even out and i'll feel a bit better and sleep at night for once.  

The one thing that angers me the most is that she implied i'm immature...I AM NOT.  I'm a 30yr old woman who is perfectly capable of taking care of herself...just because i didnt put myself in debt to buy a crap ass house does not make me immature.  I know better than to put myself into situations like that which is partially why all of this upsets me so much.  Hopefully i'll have this handled within a week maybe and life will be pretty much back to normal.  All i can say is wish me luck.

Heres hoping your lives are working out the way you planned!

Yeah, so here i am posting, its been forever and now i post...bout the most useless topic.

Ok, recently (last week) i moved in with a friend out of where i was, and i'm not sure now/yet if i regret it yet.  So, she owns a cabin out in the woods, the basement (my part of the house) isnt hard plummed, meaning the toilet, shower, sink, run on a pump thats plugged into the wall.  Anyway....the toilet sticks sometimes and i was told to 1. try jiggling the handle and if that doesnt shut it off 2. un-plug it and plug it back in to reset it.  So I come home from work thursday evening and it begins to run so i go thru the typical steps, well after unplugging and plugging it back in, it stops.  I think ok, fixed it.  Were good.  I proceed to go upstairs to figure out dinner etc and watch some tv.  When returning back downstairs i found part of the basement coated in water....the pump had quit, reason being is the plug had reset and shut off and the water wasnt being pumped correctly which caused the toilet to overflow.  Now, upon this i freaked out and called my brother to come over with his shop vac to help pick up as much as i could, we did what we could, then i called my new "landlord" to inform her of what had happened, she seemed pretty understanding bout the whole ordeal and i put out how sorry and concerned i was about this.  She had her friend come over and bring another more powerful shop vac, we worked on the basement for a good 3hrs to remove the majority of the water and basically we were left with damp carpet, which we ran fans on all night, so mainly friday morning the wetness was contained in the bathroom area. (dont worry, no icky stuff involved in this mess) so, i had to leave after work on friday to come home to my parents for the holiday, she stayed home, i emailed her a hello yesterday to kinda say merry xmas and so on.  I sign back into my account today to find her message saying "i dont think you realize how much damage was done, we'll talk upon your return"  now, thing is i dont know if she's just stating this or if she's actually pissed.  Shes kinda a private quiet person, so i havent gotten the ability to really read her yet.  Now my issue is, i feel horrible, i have since it happened, i did what i could to reconcile the situation and i dont know what to do.  Myself i'm the kinda person to stew on something enough that it just makes me physically sick.  I dont know what to do now, and i still feel horrible...sigh...i guess thats all i can say, i wanted to get it out and my saying this, i'm not sure if i tell her (which i have how sorry that i am for this happening) what difference it would make....i kinda just wanted to get it off my chest. 

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http://www.usatoday.com/life/books/news/2006-09-07-frey-settlement_x.htm

Frey, publisher reportedly settle suit Updated 9/8/2006 1:59 AM ET E-mail | Save | Print | Subscribe to stories like this

By Hillel Italie, AP National Writer NEW YORK — Memoirist James Frey and Random House, Inc. have agreed in principle to settle lawsuits filed by readers who said they were defrauded by fabrications in Frey's million-selling book, A Million Little Pieces, the publisher said. "I can confirm that we have an agreement in principle," David Drake, a spokesman for the Random House imprint Doubleday, said Thursday. "However, it requires court approval and may take several weeks and even months." Readers who bought A Million Little Pieces on or before Jan. 26, the day Frey and his publisher acknowledged that he had made up parts of the book, would be eligible for a refund of the full suggested retail price, according to a person with detailed knowledge of the settlement, who provided background information on condition of anonymity because approval is still pending. Manhattan federal court judge Richard J. Holwell consolidated the lawsuits in June. Lawyers for 10 of the 12 proposed representatives for the class-action suits have accepted terms of the settlement, which call on Frey and Random House to pay out no more than a total of $2.35 million. That sum covers the refund to consumers, plaintiffs' lawyers' fees and an unspecified donation to charity. Under terms of the settlement, neither Frey nor the publisher have admitted any wrongdoing. Reports of an imminent settlement first appeared on http://www.radaronline.com, a pop culture website. To receive refunds — $23.95 for the hardcover, $14.95 for paperback — consumers will have to submit a receipt or some other proof of purchase: for the hardcover, page 163; for the paperback, the book's front cover. They also will have to sign a sworn statement that they bought the book because they believed it was a memoir. Frey's book was a sensation after Oprah Winfrey chose it for her book club last fall, but in early January the website The Smoking Gun revealed that Frey's memoir of addiction and recovery contained numerous fabrications. Winfrey initially defended Frey, but soon changed her mind and berated him in person on her TV show. Frey has also acknowledged extensive falsifications in a second memoir, My Friend Leonard. Copyright 2006 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed. Posted 9/7/2006 1:43 PM ET

hmmph... :)

So, hmmm...not a typical, what ya been up to poster...but its been a bit and i feel bad that i havent posted. 

Well, had a busy weekend this past weekend...

Went out and partied Friday night with some friends and caught a bit of a band at Petes Pub in Traverse, Indulge.  Though we werent really there to see them, i enjoyed listening to them, even if the friends i was with were more into drunken pool than listening to some emo-guys. :)

Check them out: http://www.myspace.com/indulge  

Sucks though since 1st time i heard them, then they moved to Boston like the next day.  Oh well.

Saturday morning got up at 8ish to drive to Mt Pleasant to see my friend who was in from Florida 



Thats Crystal with her son Riley....gosh hes getting big.  

From there went out to the bar with Ezra and got home (to the rents house in
 clio) bout 1:30 Sunday morn, let me tell you, i was draggin!

Then sunday, the fam came over (i'm talking the whole Weston clan) had a 
BBQ and took a dip in my parents pool.  My nephew got his first taste of my cousin Kevins harley



He's one hot stud, dont ya think? :) lol


Watch out Evil Kenivel (yes thats my dad to the right)


Yeah....he's cute, but i'm biased.  Then again, theres the other nephew too, got some of his updated info this past weekend too. 


He doesnt know quite what to do with this whole crib thing.  He just finally got it here this past weekend...he's been sleeping in his cradle since birth.  Thinks this mobile is pretty cool



Anyway, got home to Traverse around 9ish.  All in all it was a pretty good weekend i guess.

Talk to ya'll soon....sorry bout all the pics...love my bragging rights.

Principal files complaint after grads grab rear
CLIO
THE FLINT JOURNAL FIRST EDITION
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
By Ron Fonger
rfonger@flintjournal.com • 810.766.6317

CLIO - High School Principal Keith Smith says he doesn't mind being the butt of a good-natured joke, but he wants two graduating seniors to know his backside is off limits.

Smith filed a sexual assault complaint with police after Sunday's commencement ceremony at the Clio Amphitheater, claiming the male students reached around him and grabbed his backside when he tried to congratulate them for their graduation.

"These two chose to touch me on the butt and rub it," Smith said Monday. "They are 18. They are adults. It's not OK."

Still, some thought Smith was going too far over what might have been graduation high jinks.

"I really don't see it as that big a deal, but apparently he (Smith) did," said graduating senior Cassie Ratza. "That is pretty extreme to file charges."

Police took Smith's complaint, but a Clio detective sergeant said the investigation isn't complete. No charges have been filed.

"I don't even have a report yet. We responded on a complaint," said Detective Sgt. Ronald Steinhorst. The Flint Journal could not reach Police Chief James McLellan for comment.

Word of the incident is slowly making its way around the halls of Clio High School.

Freshman Chelsea Swinford heard about it in class Monday.

"We asked the teacher if it was true that they were crossing the stage and when they got their diploma, they grabbed his butt," Swinford said. "I thought it was pretty crazy."

She admits their action shocked her, but her principal's response really took her aback.

"I think it was a little overboard, but my teacher said he did it so (students) would know they can't do worse things next year," she said.

Junior Tyler Lonsway didn't hear about it in school Monday, but he was pretty sure something went down at commencement.

"I was there and I remember hearing them call off some cars' license plates, and announce the sheriff's deputies wanted to talk with the drivers, but I didn't see anything," Lonsway said.

Most students at the graduation ceremony were unaware of the incident.

"Nope, I didn't see it, and I haven't heard anything about it," said graduating senior Grant Gunther. "(But) they should've known he was going to do something. He doesn't really let things fly."

Smith said he's got a sense of humor and understands students might do anything to stand out in front of their peers one last time.

"Every year, you are going to have something like that - (like) a kid puts shaving cream in his hand," Smith said. "If they had just patted me on the back, it wouldn't have been an issue."

Smith said the incident didn't cause a huge scene, but it did upset him. He complained to an off-duty Genesee County sheriff's deputy, who referred him to city police to make his complaint.

Jeffrey Clothier, an attorney for one of the students, said he hopes someone videotaped the commencement so police can consider whether Smith was really the victim of a sexual assault.

By definition, he said, such an assault requires that the students touched Smith for their own sexual arousal or gratification.

"To think my client would touch his principal in that way ... is absurd," Clothier said.

Smith said the two seniors took attention away from their classmates by what they did.

"The thing to remember is 206 students crossed the stage beautifully. Two made poor choices," he said. "I know if I had done that, I would have lost my job."

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Well, on wednesday i have to compete in Karaoke Finals for a contest i won a few weeks ago...some of you are thinking Karaoke? wtf? :) Others know me better..so i guess all i have to say right now is wish me luck...heres some of my songs and a random pic of me singing. :) 

After a verbal scolding all the way from France, i'm updating my journal. :) 

Thanks morganofthefay

So...first of all.... let me say....

Happy St Pattys Day!!!



So...whats new in my world....

Hmm...i moved into a house with some friends, actually its a couple, his house, i'm just renting a room, its nice, were pretty good friends so its not really getting in the way, luckily.  He gets crabby sometimes...like all men, but ya deal.  And it saved me a bit o money....by the way...addy on that new location is:
 1370 Vic Way Traverse City, MI 49686

Hmm what else...oh, i've been on the south beach diet since aug 2005 and so far i'm down 42...just above my 1st goal...i want to lose that again...but its kinda lagging right now so i'm trying to do what i can a little bit at a time.

I've moved into a new department at work and i'm doing underwriting, basically i get to shut down people who send in their applications if its not something we'd do...its interesting sometimes, other times i hate arguing with people, i'm sorry sir, your nova did not come off the line from the factory with a blower out of the hood...therefore it is NOT stock. Thank you very much.

I'll try to be better at updating this....or yet again i may get scolded. :)

Talk to you all soon......

And go out and get some green beer!

Stolen from everyone:

YOU
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favorite place to spend time:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
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3. A band, a song, or album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

You KNOW you want to do this!

 

Let me tell you how big of a dork i am, went to the store to buy my groceries and thought, "I think i'll pick up a bottle of wine" so i'm standing in the wine aisle and bam....there is the greatest name for a wine that i've ever seen....well i thought it was funny at least. :)

http://www.kellysrevenge.com.au/usfs.html

Just the description makes me giggle! :) Ive bolded the most entertaining parts to me. :) lol

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